what happened to me?

why is it that being unemployed makes me too busy to even sit down to let y'all know what i'm up to? since my memory is gone - this is the only hope i have to preserve what fun i do get to have. i have been up to a few things in the last week. non-kid related - can you imagine that?

1 week ago i persuaded a highschool friend who i will call "the mayor of sonoma county" (since he knows everyone!) to take me to a a show at the phoenix theatre to see a few old bands i used to see back in the day. i mean way back. victims family and no means no - hard rebellious stuff with big, aggressive, sweaty mosh pits that i used to stand in the middle of. i used to watch the swirl of shirtless boys running around me trying to hurt each other. it used to be fun. umm, not so much anymore - "the mayor's" wife J asked me to go up front with her. she is rambunctious and fun and just a doll. so, i reluctantly agreed. the band was playing a slower song so i was frankly bored as the people around me were just standing there - then POW! the band cranked it up and the whole place exploded. that's when you see an almost 40 year old woman, run like hell for the side, in her entirely too expensive shoes for that kind of event. did i say there yet there was a giant hillbilly in the pit in actual overalls? - i bet there was a piece of straw in his mouth too. HA HA - i'm such a chicken.

I also ran into the ex-fiance. yes i said ex. he did the always fun trick of tapping opposite shoulders and move out of the way several times to "trick" me. oh what fun. the ex part was not regretted after seeing him 15 years later. i am bad. very short conversation about nothing - 30 seconds max. kinda sad for a 5 years relationship to distill to something like that.

good friend E (ex-asst.) came for a visit from ny, always a fun spirit and good egg. we took the kids to the exploratorium on thursday. on friday we met up for dinner - i acted like an adult and got dressed up and went to dinner. i mean eye shadow was involved. i had to abort mission at the - get drinks after dinner stage though. it was already 1 am.

it was also a movie filled week - i saw couples retreat with JY and B and i took M to the double feature of toy story. that fulfill my requirements of 2 movies a year. WOW!

til we meet again...

ugh

what did i do to myself?

tick tock

i go to the office tmrw at 8:45. it should be less than an hour and guess what thing i have been stressing about the most? finding a proper zip up to wear home. pathetic huh? shopping for 2 days and i then gave up and looked in my closet. viola! some of the things you find way in the back behind the 175 pairs of jeans. i now have 3 zip up options. yeah! i have reluctantly took before pictures. which i will not post and they confirmed i need to have this done! wish me luck and i will be back in a few!

now waiting for the xanax to hit and watching the notebook - i love this girly movie!

finally a lunching like a lady!

so i had an idea of my time off as a lady who lunched. not so many lunches but more errands, kids stuff and what not. but i did have lunch today with DD a former colleague from work. she no longer works there and has by far lived it up more than anyone i know. it's been 4 months for her and i think she has been home about 5 of those days. the travel bug had always had it's teeth buried deep within her but it is on over drive now with out a job to have to go to.

i went to meet her at pacific catch on chestnut and it was soooo good! i had the ahi poke bowl with brown rice - it had avocado, seaweed salad and a refreshing daikon salad also. kind of like a bi bim bop. there is one here in the sunset that i look forward to going to if it is not as small and busy.

all in all it was fabulous company and fabulous food. funny how just a few months can make you drift apart from all these people you used to spend over 40 hrs a week with. the important ones will linger.

a must try!

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/ina-garten/cauliflower-gratin-recipe/index.html

i made a pork tenderloin tonight with this as the side dish. sooo good. M didn't like it b/c it had stuff on it. he likes it better when food is clean of all sauce and is in it's natural state. i know - my child is weird. B ate 2 servings though and the chunk liked it too.

it makes a lot of dishes though and i was sweating when i was done - i'm not used to making cheese sauce things so i was freaking out.

how can you go wrong when it is ina making something for her barefoot in paris episode.

enjoy!

lots of reasons not to...

here i am again. i have a been a terrible blogger. i have wanted to share thoughts, shoes and recipes and some how life took over and i was living it rather than sitting in front of this computer and telling no one in particular about it.

OMG! i just looked back to see when i last blogged and it's been ages! let's see what's happened since?

i have been to the emergency room again! they still can't figure out what's wrong with me. i am anemic now. i have to take iron forever. i will always be tired etc etc. and medication will be experimented with.

i have taken up bikram yoga. there is a studio 8 blocks away. seacliff bikram yoga studio has a $10 for 10 days and i went for 7! i am not one for exercising but i am now addicted. i saw results in three days. i will never push myself to sweat like that doing anything on my own so this is perfect. i can leave everything behind and just try to survive the class for 1 1/2 hours and come out the most sweaty mess ever, clothes soaked, red faced and elated. i joined for 6 months b/c who knows where i will be in 6 months anyways. it's been about 3 weeks and some clothes are falling off me now. all incentive to keep going. i also get to repurpose my pole dancing class shorts b/c i try to wear as little as possible. it's just those 8 blocks home that i get funny looks. it is foggy and i am wearing stripper shorts on my walk home. it is a vision that i hope none of you have to experience.

i bought an entirely too expensive pair of shoe/boots for an unemployed person. i will take a pic soon - they are lovely! nothing like retail therapy. who else goes to the same dr.? now i need to get the girls out so i can where them. except if it rains like today.

did summer never come? we just skipped to el nino? i digress. this is incredibly yucky.

B and chunk have been sick for a week so i have been doing ALOT by myself this last week. Chunk also had an allergic reaction to a bit of donut on top of all this. it may have been next to the one with coconut. so no more donuts for him.

we do have a bit of good news - the jag is working at the moment. it was in the shop for a month. it was pissing me off!!! the funny thing is when he drives it all these men gives him a "hey" or thumbs up. it's like some secret men's "i love jags that don't work that are working at the moment" club.

one last thing - i have my pre-op tomorrow. the surgery will be on thursday and i will undo the damage having 2 kids did. oooh the mystery...

i survived today

two kids, 2 colds means i stayed in my pajamas way past when i was supposed to and the kids were watching t.v. during the day time and eating cheez-its before 11am. 2 things i do not allow usually is day time t.v. on the week days and snacking on junk in the mornings. i did 5 hours and threw in the towel. sue me. i hope i don't take the easy road too often - but it sure is easier when elmo is singing to them and i had a moment to not have to be entertaining or playing referee. so sue me!