WHat's the damages?

Wanted to lay low, conserve money and Not so a big party this year for the kids so instead I did a bunch of little ones. Let's see the damge and see if it's worth it.

K
Bday brunch $60
Cake at gmas $35
Cake with friends $45

M
Lego store $150
Build a bear $50
House of air with buddie $45
Pizza for party at school $40
Home party with snacks and cake. $100

Nope not worth it. One big party for both and everone come.

Broken

I thought a few weeks ago. Hey why not have a small gathering of m loves school friends for some fun and cake. I sent a note to 6 classmates parents and included "drop off" ok. I didn't think that all the parents would drop their kid off at a practical strangers house. Boy was I wrong! 2 on the dot they all arrived within 10 minutes of each other and just a hello and see you later. Then at exactly 4:20 they started leaving until 4:30. They all had left. No problem, I thought this is easier than having the parents around except for having the proportion of alpha males be higher than 1. They were down right crazy pants. I tried to calm them and got called out on "you just want to have us stand here with our hands by our sides". Why yes, that would have been more preferrable but I let them have fun until crying or blood. I expected more blood. 2 girls played with the crafts and the boys beat the crap out of each other the entire time. I need a Valium and a massage.

Hello stranger

Life in the last four months have been nothing but intense. I was called for a few jobs and finally was talked into one and have been doing nothing but working since. Anywhere grim 65 to about 50 hours a week regularly and about 4 of those weeks was around 40. What a sham. I miss my kids but I only want to do a good job. I can't do it 1/2 way. But the family thing I definitely am. I didn't do a holidy card or calendar, didn't make it to more than one field trip, didn't make it to one celebration for either of their birthdays at school and see them about 2 times a week before they go to bed. Lord knows what they are doing with big B alone everyday. That's 3 boys with no discipline. All I know is when I come home M love jumps up and will say I didn't play wii today! And Kaden is staring into the set. When I was off there was no wii except a 1/2 hour on weekends and tv was not turned on in th daytime except for a 1/2 hour before bed to relax. There are bags of chips and some sweet artificial soda or Gatorade on the counter. Their activities all encompass things I never let them do on my watch. M love never has his reading log done on Wednesday and there is no checking of his homework. For some reason I could
work before and get things done. Now I can only work and trust that the kids are not going to die under their fathers care but not anything more is added to their development. I do it my way, he does it his. I trust I will get this balance thing one day it's just taking longer than I expected!

The official end to summer

It's always on labor day, the signal of the end of summer. The only problem is that the sf school system starts the beginning of august for some reason. So our summer has been over for awhile. But it didn't stop us from taking advantage of our little spot of outside that we have in the city. The trampoline came out, play structure, sand and water table and grill. Friends with lots of kids invited. In reality, the kids played wii up in the apartment, all 9 of them and the adults went and enjoyed the over 80 degrees that we never get to experience in our back yard. B kept the beer fresh in everyones hands and grilled his little butt off to keep us all fed. The trampoline became a lounger and we got our vitamin D while speaking of all things inappropriate. It was a beautiful time!

WishIng I could shop or I mean stop

I am pulling the reigns so tight on my shopping that my arms are so cut right now from the tension. Did it stop me from receiving boxes of 2 off the shoulder mini dresses and one silk strapless mini bubble dress while I was on vacation? I also just bordered a pair of grey booties today. Can't post pics from this damn iPad or you would see. Oh, also bought package deal for a spa. Did I just spent over a month on vacation and spent a bundle? If someone can help me I would be so appreciative.

Sleepless in sf

2:30 in the morning and proud that I finally figured out how to blog from my phone. Hey it's been awhile and I haven't said anything. There's been lovely purchases, beauty splurges and vacations and radio silence from me.

What is keeping me up? Thinking about getting a job. Not an actual job (that used to keep me up too). But just thinking it's about time. How much to get paid, how much do I want to work, what category of the industry do I get into.

Then I start thinking I need a work space and where it needs to go and what new furniture I need to buy, etc etc. Decorating where in the shoe box?

I then think I have ADD and then maybe should call my dr to make sure I don't. Then I think maybe I should take up meditating to get this monkey mind to calm down. Then I can get the answers. Then it's another visit to amazon.com to find a book to teach me how to sit still.

I hope I'm like everyone else if not maybe dr wong does need a call from me.

Or maybe it was that late nap I took that is wreaking havoc on my sleep schedule.

Got that all out and I'm still not tired. Tmrw is going to suck!

bikram vs. dailey method

1 day post dailey method. a little sore - nothing compared to bikram. the total body exhaustion and soreness is not there. today i am a bit sore in places where i haven't been before, like my lower abdomen. which is good b/c i need help there! i joined this month and we will see if i am in shape for vegas - baby! i know a cliche but it i'm going to look slutty i don't want to be flabby slutty.