ugh

what did i do to myself?

tick tock

i go to the office tmrw at 8:45. it should be less than an hour and guess what thing i have been stressing about the most? finding a proper zip up to wear home. pathetic huh? shopping for 2 days and i then gave up and looked in my closet. viola! some of the things you find way in the back behind the 175 pairs of jeans. i now have 3 zip up options. yeah! i have reluctantly took before pictures. which i will not post and they confirmed i need to have this done! wish me luck and i will be back in a few!

now waiting for the xanax to hit and watching the notebook - i love this girly movie!

finally a lunching like a lady!

so i had an idea of my time off as a lady who lunched. not so many lunches but more errands, kids stuff and what not. but i did have lunch today with DD a former colleague from work. she no longer works there and has by far lived it up more than anyone i know. it's been 4 months for her and i think she has been home about 5 of those days. the travel bug had always had it's teeth buried deep within her but it is on over drive now with out a job to have to go to.

i went to meet her at pacific catch on chestnut and it was soooo good! i had the ahi poke bowl with brown rice - it had avocado, seaweed salad and a refreshing daikon salad also. kind of like a bi bim bop. there is one here in the sunset that i look forward to going to if it is not as small and busy.

all in all it was fabulous company and fabulous food. funny how just a few months can make you drift apart from all these people you used to spend over 40 hrs a week with. the important ones will linger.

a must try!

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/ina-garten/cauliflower-gratin-recipe/index.html

i made a pork tenderloin tonight with this as the side dish. sooo good. M didn't like it b/c it had stuff on it. he likes it better when food is clean of all sauce and is in it's natural state. i know - my child is weird. B ate 2 servings though and the chunk liked it too.

it makes a lot of dishes though and i was sweating when i was done - i'm not used to making cheese sauce things so i was freaking out.

how can you go wrong when it is ina making something for her barefoot in paris episode.

enjoy!

lots of reasons not to...

here i am again. i have a been a terrible blogger. i have wanted to share thoughts, shoes and recipes and some how life took over and i was living it rather than sitting in front of this computer and telling no one in particular about it.

OMG! i just looked back to see when i last blogged and it's been ages! let's see what's happened since?

i have been to the emergency room again! they still can't figure out what's wrong with me. i am anemic now. i have to take iron forever. i will always be tired etc etc. and medication will be experimented with.

i have taken up bikram yoga. there is a studio 8 blocks away. seacliff bikram yoga studio has a $10 for 10 days and i went for 7! i am not one for exercising but i am now addicted. i saw results in three days. i will never push myself to sweat like that doing anything on my own so this is perfect. i can leave everything behind and just try to survive the class for 1 1/2 hours and come out the most sweaty mess ever, clothes soaked, red faced and elated. i joined for 6 months b/c who knows where i will be in 6 months anyways. it's been about 3 weeks and some clothes are falling off me now. all incentive to keep going. i also get to repurpose my pole dancing class shorts b/c i try to wear as little as possible. it's just those 8 blocks home that i get funny looks. it is foggy and i am wearing stripper shorts on my walk home. it is a vision that i hope none of you have to experience.

i bought an entirely too expensive pair of shoe/boots for an unemployed person. i will take a pic soon - they are lovely! nothing like retail therapy. who else goes to the same dr.? now i need to get the girls out so i can where them. except if it rains like today.

did summer never come? we just skipped to el nino? i digress. this is incredibly yucky.

B and chunk have been sick for a week so i have been doing ALOT by myself this last week. Chunk also had an allergic reaction to a bit of donut on top of all this. it may have been next to the one with coconut. so no more donuts for him.

we do have a bit of good news - the jag is working at the moment. it was in the shop for a month. it was pissing me off!!! the funny thing is when he drives it all these men gives him a "hey" or thumbs up. it's like some secret men's "i love jags that don't work that are working at the moment" club.

one last thing - i have my pre-op tomorrow. the surgery will be on thursday and i will undo the damage having 2 kids did. oooh the mystery...